I’m taking a blogging class. Or rather, I’m occasionally checking in on a blogging class, as really I have yet to absorb this whole blogging thing enough to really challenge myself in the way this class suggests. This process still feels like navel-gazing and exploration of possibilities, of thinking aloud with an audience. My first assignment was to revamp my about page. I got as far as changing my picture. I’m still not sure exactly what this blog is about, where I want it to go. Right now I think that’s a good thing, that resisting of defining this concept of sharing that I haven’t quite decided whether I want to keep. I am already pulled away from my family by work (and by reading too many other blogs), do I really need to add something that keeps me at a computer more? And yet, the same pull to share that makes Facebook so attractive and that has spawned millions of other’s blogs also pulls. The life of a parent is inherently a little lonely (or perhaps that’s just me). Home most evenings, TV is boring, I can only do so much housework or after-hours work before losing my mind. I’m not good at calling people, I hate talking on the phone. I am very much an introvert.
This class though, while interesting, presents some pressure I don’t need to create another thing to judge myself for, although I am exceptionally talented at self-judgement. But I have enough of that going on as a parent, at work and with the endless unfinished house projects. Is there such a thing as “failing” at blogging? What do I consider successful? Right now I think it’s just posting, starting a conversation, even if it’s mostly in my head. I’d love it if this lead to more … something.
Back to my assignment, to create two “creative” posts this week. Well, this one is just a bit of rambling, interspersed with quotes and pictures. Things I’m finding inspiration in now, projects I’m planning to work on soon. (Aren’t those doors gorgeous?)
If you’re still reading along on this here’s what I think I’ll be blogging about moving forward. I want to make the process of creating an attractive, comfortable home transparent and simple. I’ll do this by blogging about my own projects and taking on planning for others as well (message me if you’re interested). I want to share something about parenting, I think this will just be my way of making sure I do the things with my kids that I say I want to, blogging as accountability if you will. I’ll mix in some gardening but I need to figure out how. And lastly perhaps some inspiration for things to work towards. I don’t want to be a blog that just posts pretty pictures from things. I like those a lot, don’t get me wrong, but it doesn’t feel like I have anything to add to that genre (can you call that a genre?). And mostly, I’d like to develop my writing voice again, it feels very much lost over the last few years. And while writing about how I’ve crafted my home isn’t the same kind of writing, it’s the type of everyday writing I think I can reasonably plan to engage in right now. Not super creative. Not judging myself. Just creative enough to keep myself (and hopefully you) interested. We shall see.